Where love truly begins

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I feel like I’m not good enough. I feel so small and worthless –and I cry.

But it’s not true. It’s not true.

Because I am good enough. I am so free.

I am good enough and happy within.

I am good enough. I believe it now. I believe in me.

I love myself.

Yesterday, I had an incredibly powerful experience. All it really took was a little courage, some anger – used as a positive driving force – and the firm determination to make a decision.

We coaches are human too, and we all carry our own baggage. Even though we regularly work on ourselves, there are still difficult days when we fall back into old patterns.

As exhausting and frustrating as this can be, I also see it as an opportunity. A sign that says:

Hey, there is still something here that needs a little attention. Something you can look at – and perhaps even release.

Yesterday, some of my old limiting beliefs tried to take the wheel again. Something triggered me from the outside, and I began diminishing myself and making myself smaller than I really am.

One of my old themes is the fear of not being enough and of losing people in my life. In moments like these, I quickly take things personally – and before I know it, I have lowered my own sense of self-worth.

If I had to describe it as an image, I would say it feels like thick, black, sticky slime covering me. It does not just look horrible – it feels horrible too.

In moments like these, my brain knows that what I am telling myself is complete nonsense. But my body has not yet caught up with that knowledge. Understanding something on a cognitive level alone does not make the slime disappear. That takes a little more action.

When I realised what was happening, I initially became angry. Angry with myself, angry with the situation and angry with the battle taking place inside me.

Beliefs like these are incredibly persistent. They run deep and have been with me for many years. But this time, I was not prepared to simply hand them the wheel.

So I began countering them with new words:

“I am enough, exactly as I am.”

“I am a wonderful person, and I genuinely like myself.”

I marched around the house, telling myself out loud – what felt like 200 times – that I am a wonderful person.

If one of my neighbours had heard me, they would probably have thought that a record was stuck somewhere, endlessly repeating the same line.

I had never showered myself with declarations of love quite like this before. It felt a little strange. But the more often I said the words out loud, the more I felt the black, sticky slime slowly disappear – and a sense of lightness take its place in my body.

And then something unexpected happened

A little later, I settled comfortably into my armchair. Suddenly, I noticed my legs.

I looked at them for a moment and felt a strangely warm sensation growing inside me. I caught myself thinking that my legs were beautiful.

This was more than just an observation – although my legs are perfectly fine.

It felt as though something that had been disconnected for a long time was suddenly reconnecting with me. As though love could begin to flow into that very place.

All at once, I felt worthy and whole. I had brought myself back into balance and was meeting myself as an equal again.

The moment moved me so deeply that my eyes filled with tears.

Love begins within us.

How can we address the wars and conflicts in the world if we are not willing to begin with ourselves?

When I genuinely like myself and meet myself as an equal, I feel good within. I no longer need to change other people or seek from the outside world what is missing inside me.

Sometimes, it takes a clear inner decision: to follow the path of love rather than the path of fear. And knowledge alone is not enough. It also takes action.

What about you? Which old belief are you no longer willing to let take the wheel today – and what loving words would you like to offer yourself instead?