Happy New Year to everyone! In the first part of my series A House Full of Wonders , I shared how our body is like a house full of rooms waiting to be discovered and decluttered. If you missed that post, you can catch up here . Have you ever tried to ignore a problem, thinking, "If I don't see it, it's not really there"? Yeah, me too. But honestly, how often has that actually worked? I’ve learned that suppression might bring temporary relief, but it’s not a long-term solution. Painful experiences and memories don’t just disappear. They linger—like dusty old boxes in a dark room. And eventually, we stumble over them in the middle of our daily lives. It was only when I decided to face those dark rooms within me that I truly found peace. It felt like stepping into an abandoned house and opening doors, one by one. Some rooms were bright, others quite chaotic—but with every step, I let in more light, air, and warmth. Where do you find yourself suppressing things? 🌈 In the next post, we’ll take a humorous turn: I’ll take you on a journey through the chaotic rooms of my body—and how I used an imaginary broom to bring light and order. Stay tuned for A Broom for the Soul ! If you’d like to comment or share your thoughts, you are warmly invited to do so. Sincerely Caroline Banz

Willkommen zu meiner Mini-Serie „Ein Haus voller Wunder“! Kennt ihr das Gefühl, wenn man ein Haus entrümpelt? Staub fliegt, alte Kisten werden aussortiert, und plötzlich kommt Licht und Luft in Räume, die lange Zeit vollgestellt waren. Es ist, als ob man nicht nur den Boden, sondern auch die Seele fegt – ein befreiendes Gefühl, das Platz für Neues schafft und wieder Wärme reinbringt. Fast so, als ob das Haus selbst ein erleichtertes „Puh!“ von sich gibt! Genau so fühlte es sich für mich an, als ich begann, meinem Körper wirklich zuzuhören. Vor zwei Jahren habe ich mich entschieden, eine Ausbildung als Sexological Bodyworker zu machen – ein Beruf, der in den USA bereits etabliert ist. Diese Ausbildung hat mir geholfen, die „Zimmer meines Körpers“ zu betreten, sie zu fegen, Licht hineinzulassen sowie Altes und ja, zum Teil Unangenehmes, zu betrachten, das ich so lange beiseitegeschoben hatte. Das half mir, es auch endlich loszulassen. Aber das Spannendste daran? Mit diesem ganzheitlichen Ansatz kann ich jetzt auch anderen Menschen helfen, ihre ganz eigenen Räume in sich zu entdecken und erstrahlen zu lassen. Denn unsere Körper sind wie Häuser voller Wunder – sie warten nur darauf, dass wir die Türen öffnen. Es ist unglaublich schön zu sehen, wie Menschen, die zu mir ins Bodywork kommen, ihre inneren Räume zum Strahlen bringen - manchmal so sehr, dass ich fast zur Sonnenbrille greifen muss:-). Welche Räume in euch warten darauf, entdeckt und zum Strahlen gebracht zu werden? Ich freue mich, wenn ihr diese Reise mit mir macht. Folgt mir für die nächsten Beiträge und teilt gerne, was euch in eurem inneren Haus bewegt. Im nächsten Beitrag werde ich mit euch darüber sprechen, warum Verdrängung keine Lösung ist und was sich auftun kann, wenn wir uns den verschlossenen Türen in unserem Körper stellen können. Freut euch auf den nächsten Teil der Serie: ‚Verdrängen hilft nicht‘. Wenn du kommentieren oder deine Gedanken teilen möchtest, schau gerne auf meinem Blog vorbei – dort kannst du dich direkt mit mir und anderen austauschen! Herzlich Caroline Tanja Banz

Welcome to my mini-series "A House Full of Wonders"! Do you know the feeling of decluttering a house? Dust flies, old boxes are sorted out, and suddenly light and air flow into spaces that have been crowded for a long time. It feels like you're not only sweeping the floors but also your soul—a liberating feeling that makes room for new things and brings warmth back into your life. It's almost as if the house itself lets out a relieved "Phew!" That’s exactly how I felt when I began truly listening to my body. Two years ago, I decided to train as a Sexological Bodyworker—a profession that is already well-established in the U.S. This training helped me enter the “rooms of my body,” clear them out, let in light, and take a closer look at things I had pushed aside for so long, some of which were unpleasant. And in doing so, I was finally able to let them go. But the most exciting part? With this holistic approach, I can now help others discover and illuminate their own unique inner spaces. Our bodies are like houses full of wonders—just waiting for us to open the doors. It's incredibly beautiful to witness how people I work with bring their inner spaces to life—sometimes so brightly that I feel like I need to grab sunglasses! 😊 What rooms within you are waiting to be discovered and brought to light? I’m thrilled to have you join me on this journey. Follow along for the next posts, and feel free to share what’s moving you inside your inner house. In the next post, I’ll talk about why repression is not a solution and what can unfold when we confront the closed doors within our bodies. Stay tuned for the next part of the series: “Repression Doesn’t Help.” If you’d like to comment or share your thoughts, feel free to visit my blog—there, you can connect with me and others directly! Warmly, Caroline Tanja Banz

I am happy to present you our new song “Be your True Self” (Music - Ivan Dimitrov) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1HvncJufLJs Lead Vocal, Lyrics - Caroline Tanja Banz Drums - Stanko Kociov Guitar, Vocals - Ivan Dimitrov Bass - Robert Vizvari Fender Rhodes - Eugen Vizvary MIXING & MASTERING by Ivan Dimitrov October 5, 2022

Yes, you have read correctly. I married myself. The idea came up in 2021. A couple loves each other, gets married and promises each other eternal fidelity, care and love. There's actually a lot to be said for giving yourself these beautiful things in life. Don't you think so? For me, this "self-marriage" was a making peace with the past and a promise for the now and the future. Here's a quick review: My life was a roller coaster ride for years. Even as a child, there were rough times for me. My childhood was a time filled with fears, violence and shame. At the worst times, I would lock myself in my room full of fear, fearing for my mother's life. This had a devastating impact on my life. Even then, I unconsciously developed a strategy: I had to scale back my needs and take care of others much more, giving of myself and serving, to make sure I was loved and never abandoned. My natural nature, which was to help and support, had evolved in a very unhealthy direction. In my early 20s, I thought I had my life pretty well under control despite this dark childhood, and that I was still "well turned out" after all. But in fact it soon became apparent that I was probably one of the best repression artists the world has ever produced. I was a woman who still liked to help and do everything imaginable for her fellow human beings so that they were happy. However, I often "bent like a pretzel." I always seemed to sense what other people liked and needed. About myself, however, I knew precious little. Being in relationship with people and being loved by them was my goal, so much so that I didn't know myself at all because of my focus on other people. And if you don't know someone, you can neither love nor accept them. Unfortunately, my body also felt this, because I was not very mindful of it. I am not proud of that. My relationships were also - no wonder - a roller coaster ride, because for a long time I carried the thinking and strategy pattern of the child at that time inside me. About 3 years ago, after more than 40 years, the awakening came. I started to look, to see through my patterns and to understand them. This was definitely not a walk in the park. It took a lot of courage, overcoming and quite a few tears to face reality. On this journey of awakening and looking, I learned a lot about myself. I began to realize what self-love is, what truth and authenticity feel like. Naming and expressing feelings helped me to get to know myself on the one hand, but also to feel my childhood wounds in all clarity on the other. These now came to the surface for the first time, wanting to be heard and comforted, which was painful but long overdue. By awakening and looking, I was finally able to grieve, process and let go. I am now at peace with my past and make peace with it. Even though I have learned a lot about myself, I am nowhere near the end of my journey. I have discovered how beautiful self-love and authenticity are. I have found a new best friend - myself! A friend who loves me as I am, until the end of days and much further. And to this friend I promise to be true to myself and to remain authentic, to stand by myself and to love myself just as I love other people. That was and is an important step for me. And I would like to take many more such steps. I love being a coach, helping and supporting people, and I do this now from a nourished and loved self. I would like to thank all the people who have given me both challenges and bright spots along the way.